| Visiting
Dad documents visiting hours at the hospital during
my father's battle with cancer which he ultimately lost in the summer
of 2004. The images were shot with the small digital camera that
I carry with me in my pocket most of the time.
During
his life, my father was a man of few words. Chain-smoking was his
only apparent vice. He spent long weekends reading cheap science
fiction. This is where he seemed to find the most happiness. He
worked hard at his job. At home he relaxed in front of the television
set. His heroes were, Clint Eastwood, Ronald Reagan and God.
In his last days, my father made no motions toward
finding meaning in what was happening or establishing closure with
his family. Visiting hours were characterized by small talk and
the adults tending to restless children. There were long moments
of silence stretched between short bursts of conversation about
hospital food and insurance matters.
My father had been sick only a short time but we
knew he would not live much longer. It was like watching a short
scene in one of his T.V. cop dramas where the death of a minor guest
star triggers a slight new development in the plot. My father preferred
to live only in the background of his daughter's lives. Because
of this, there were few major tides to calm, but the most disruptive
wave was the silent one.
This
is as much a glimpse at the tension and tenderness always present
between a man and his family as it is a portrait of his dying days.
Special
thanks to Mom, Eve, Jessie, Roxanne, Madison, Aydan, Jacob, and
Dad. |